John 11: 23-26
Jesus said to her, "Your brother will rise again."
Waylon, Happy Times!
"There's no tragedy in life like the death of a child.
Things never get back to the way they were."
Dwight D. Eisenhower
34th President
1890-1969
Waylon liked history.....I remember when Gods
and Generals came out in 2003. Rex and I went with Waylon
to see this movie. He sat there through the whole movie, enthralled by the big screen.
Star Wars, Titanic, Lord of the Rings, 300....
They all captured his attention...and I believe they impacted his life....
When a new movie is being released.....that I know Waylon would rush out to see..
That's when I am really reminded..
that things never get back to the way they were...
when I sit in the movie theater,
I still sometimes cry..
I do have to tell myself...I shared many movies with Waylon.
I am glad of that. We could talk about movies for hours....and watch them...
"Movie Marathons!"
Waylon would come home from college and want to start a movie marathon at 10:00 at night!
I think Waylon was also impacted by history from his elementary teacher, Mr. Mathys.
Waylon worked hard on all his "history" assignments that year...it was fun watching him.
It's interesting.....how one person can help shape and mold a person, and I was always glad that Waylon was a student of Mr. Mathys....that he grew a deeper appreciation for history and life, at such an early age.
Paul Newman stated this after the death of his son, who died of an accidental drug overdose in 1978,
"Everything in his life was divided into two periods,
time before his death
and afterwards."
Paul Newman
1925-2008
I think I already have made some mention to this feeling..
I call it life, "before the accident" and life,
"after the accident".
It has been over two years, since "the accident". We still have bad days, and then maybe a good day.
We still think of Waylon ever day. For Rex and I, it starts when we wake up, and stops when we fall asleep.
He is always on our minds....
Always...
that's just how it is...
We are still trying to "find" ways to deal and cope...
I Blog...
and for me, it helps.
I have not been able to now for over a month...
and believe me....
I was in need of a good blog!
Another quote:
Your grief will take more energy then you would
have ever imagined.
T.A.R
borrowed from Compassionate Friend
2012
Rex and I can really relate here....
For us, it is an all consuming...
draining, emptiness..
I think I can best describe it like an all consuming, raging fire, spreading out of control, that takes everything in it's path and sucks the oxygen out of the air..
leaving nothing...
and slowly..
you have to relearn how to live
and to grow again.
The other day,
I heard a sound
that I had not
"heard" in awhile..
a sound that I
had not let into my thought process
for quite some time...
a sound that had almost become very
"foreign" to me..
It was a sound that really made me feel something again....
it was the sound of
my child's
"laughter".
cindy.
Another Quote:
Grieving the loss of a child is a process,
it begins the day your child passes,
and ends the day the parent joins them.
B.J. Karrer
I know I have made reference to this...
my grieving will end the day I am no longer living
on this earth.
John 11: 23-26
Jesus said to her, "Your brother will rise again." Martha said to him, "I know that he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day." Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die.
Do you believe this?"
Jesus
"who lives forever"
I think what I wanted to get across today,
is that, no matter what time frame we are in,
or what "era" we are in,
the year, the date,
it doesn't matter..
the death of a child,
can be related throughout history,
with similar experiences and feelings.
I think I wrote earlier in a blog....
I believe that will all my heart....
We are all different...
and yet we are the same...
Grieving is hurt...
we all hurt.
cindy
These "quotes" are from the July/August 2012, The Compassionate Friend.
A friend started helping me get these.
It is hard to read, but what I do get out of the articles is that, others hurt....
others experience what I
am experiencing, what I am living through..
some are well past my two years...
and
some are just starting.
Cindy Martensen
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