Thursday, January 31, 2013

23 Minutes, When I Close My Eyes.


When I close my eyes
its not always peace that I find
but
the last few minutes of
his consciousness...
his existence
that I search for
 
When I close my eyes...
it's
The very last few minutes that he may have had
his thoughts...
his beliefs,
a sense of his surroundings...
what occurred..
what was lost.
 
 
When I close my eyes

The Air is Still...
You can hear the engine rev,
his last look....
before the fear begins...
 
airborne....
 
When I close my eyes..
 
You wonder what happened..
how could this occur?
Just out with a friend...
the night becomes
a blur...
I can hear the crash
the twist of fate...
 
 
the car.....
the glass
smash..
the upturned tree..
 
the smell...
like somethings burning..
the silence
before the scream...
What thoughts,
what memories
did he see....
a flash of
light?
an angels touch?
 
 
when I close my eyes...
 
 
Waylon....
Waylon....
 
 
Did your eyes ever open
did you hear your name....
as
she came to be with you,
Waylon.
 
 
Did an angel come stand
with you...
in the darkness
of the night?
Hold your hand..
and guide you to the light?
 
 
These are my questions,
When I close my eyes....
 
 
The ambulance,
the staff..
I know the drill...
 
 
When I close my eyes..
 
 
I can see the helicopter
feel the wind in my face
the bright colored panels
in the still of the night..
 
 
it comes for you
it comes for you
 
 
Waylon....
 
Waylon....
I can see them
I can hear them..
I know what they do..
 
 
the tearing of the wrappers..
the sound of the monitor....
waiting for the return
of your precious
heart beat,
 
 
chest compressions...
the oxygen
the ambu bag.....
 
 
I can feel the adrenaline,
racing through my veins.
the counting begins,
1 and 2 and 3..
breathe...
breathe...
breathe Waylon breathe.
 
 
1 and 2 and 3..
breathe...
breathe...
breathe Waylon breathe.
 
 
they work hard
I see that in my dreams..
you're just a young man
so much yet to achieve.
 
 
It takes
23 minutes....
until your heart beats again.
I can hear it,
see it..
 
 
They whisk you off
so much yet to do
but we all know how this ends
 
 
When I close my eyes...
 
 
I don't get to change it
even though I have tried
many nights I
 have begged,
pleaded and
cried.
 
 
When I close my eyes..
 
 
I've yet to find you...
in my dreams I search
but I know..
someday..
your hand
I will hold.
 
 
When I close my eyes.
 
 
Waylon.